Feeling Blue

Okay, I have to admit, I usually try to post on here just about cute things that my kids do and the positive aspects of my family. But, my heart is so heavy right now and I figured you know what...life isn't always rosy and unfortunately this is a part of my life right now. I can't just bury my head in the sand and act as if I'm not hurt and affected by this. So, if it makes me feel better to get it off my chest, then it's what I have to do.

I guess I will never understand how you can claim to care so deeply about a friend for years and spend a lot of time with them to just suddenly discard them and then claim "I'm just so busy" and "friendships are like seasons". I know that people get busy and that we tend to migrate toward those who are in our circles (kids schools, sports, etc...) But, I feel that if someone is important to you, then you make the time somehow someway. Even if it's one day a month on the calendar for coffee or whatever. I know I'm not the first person that my friend has done this to, but I really truly believed in my heart that we had a bond and a connection. I mean, to not even answer when you call or even call you back for days on end and sometimes not ever, and then get exasperated when you tell them that you miss them and want to get together soon. How dare I!! What kind of friend does that to you. Recently I was dealing with something and reached out to her for a shoulder and advice and you know what? She didn't have the time for me or just didn't care. It just hurts, bottom line.

My mom, who is my biggest fan and also my biggest critic (when I need it) cannot even understand it. She just said that people change and obviously she has. I still care deeply about her, don't get me wrong, but I have learned a valuable lesson by all of this. I'm not saying that she wasn't worthy of my trust at the time because she was, but I just wish I could turn off my feelings as easily as she can. Due to circumstances, we will be around eachother but I just need to find a way to deal with all of this so I don't put myself in this position again. I hope she finds a friend who she connects with like I thought we did.

On a lighter note, AJ was singing the "Itsy Bitsy Spider" today and his version was "Binty Binty Pider Bounce the Bounce". I was soooo cute :) He is growing up so much and is learning something new every day. I cannot believe that he'll be 3 in a couple of months. ~sigh~ my baby is growing up.

In full swing

Summertime is almost halfway over -- hard to believe! I truly thought the boys would be driving me to the nuthouse by now, but they've been surprisingly good. It certainly doesn't hurt that I've been praying even more than usual! Caffeine never hurts either (LOL!). Anyway, I ended up with a 104.18 average in my Medical Term. class....woo hoo!! I was ecstatic to say the least. Next up, Issues in Grieving and Loss. One of the assignments in this course is to write our own obituaries (can you say MORBID!). Anyway, I'm on my way to my goal :)

My garage sale was a success all around. Dominic made $33 on lemonade and cookies and he sold a pinball machine. I did pretty well too and made my garage no longer look like Sanford and Son lived there! Anyway, we will be spending the day out by the pool (how did we EVER live without one?!) The boys are out there with daddy now.

On another note, how did our parents ever deal with our hormonal teenage attitudes?!! Alexander has become one moody, rude individual. I try so hard to be positive, but sometimes I just want to smack him upside his head. UGH! Anyway, off to enjoy the pool before it rains :)

Summertime :)

Okay, here it is before 8:00 am and I'm feeling as if I haven't gotten any sleep. I have, mind you, but I've just been so darn stressed out lately. I only have 3 classes left before I start the next mini-mester, and now that the boys are home for the summer, studying is next to impossible! I'm pulling a 102 average (woo hoo!), but I'm studying my butt off too. This class just reinforces how much I love the medical field. I just can't wait to be all done so I can have a career that I thoroughly enjoy.

Anyway, AJ was sick on Tuesday. Weird -- he came down with this nasty fever and then it was gone by Wednesday. No other symptoms and then it went away. I'm hoping he was just cutting his 2 year molars. This kid is so darn funny. Last week Steve was getting ready for work and AJ got up and said "Daddy can you help me find my paci?" (yes he still takes one :( ) and Steve asked him where it was and he told him "The paci monster took it". Steve asked him what color the paci monster was and he looked down at his shirt and said "Green". The rest of the conversation went like this: Steve: "Does he have a lot of teeth" and AJ said "No, just 2 (holding up 5 fingers)" and Steve said "Is he mean?" and AJ said "No, he's nice" and AJ told him to check in the closet and Steve told him that the paci monster wasn't in the closet and neither was the paci but then he spotted it on the floor by AJ's bed. He said "you mean this paci?" and AJ said "OH, the paci monster gave it back!" ROFLMAO!!!! I was listening to this whole converstion in the baby monitor. The imagination this kid has is unbelievable.

I'm having a garage sale tomorrow (DOUBLE YUK!) but we have so much crap to get rid of and I know Steve would like to see his garage floor sooner rather than later. Gina was nice enough to let me borrow her girls' lemonade stand for Dominic to use. He's so excited!

Anyway, on to another summer day :)

Just a few funnies...

Well, we got back from our vacation at the resort on Saturday. We had a great time (although it always goes by way too fast)! Dominic got sick on the day we were to come home, so we had to return a little earlier than planned. Turns out, he got strep throat. Then, Joseph ended up sick and then AJ followed. Thankfully they are all better now :)

Anyway, after the boys' got there bath the other night, I combed AJ's hair and he looked at himself in the mirror and said "Look at me. Look how handsome I am!" LOL! He is such an expressive and vibrant child. He doesn't do anything without putting all his emotion into it. He really makes me laugh (and sometimes want to scream!) everyday. Wednesday night when Steve got home from work, he said "you came home to see me!!" Steve started laughing because he said it in such a robust way.

The day after we returned from vacation, Joseph was eating something (his favorite thing to do) and he made a mess (does he ever not?!!) and said "I wish we were still on vacation because then it wouldn't matter". Awwww, that made me so sad! When we were on vacation, we just had pure fun and didn't worry about messes. Unfortunately at home, I have to try to keep some sort of order or chaos would reign!

As much as having 4 boys can sometimes (okay, often) make me feel like I'm on the brink of insanity, it never ceases to amaze me how much love I can feel for these people that God has entrusted me with. He is good and I just hope that I can be as good as He wants me to be...

Summer is coming!

I took the boys to the park today and had it not been for the breeze, it would have felt just like summer! As much as I'm looking forward to not having to rush around in the morning, I am dreading being together 24-7 for 2 1/2 whole months! I enjoy the days when they're in school because it gives me a little down time from testosteroneville. Don't get me wrong, I love these guys more than anything, but I need a break from time to time (who doesn't, right?!). I am going to be taking some night classes over the summer, so that will give me a little reprieve.

On another note, Dominic is 7 now!! Hard to believe my little boy is growning up so fast. He's really an incredible person and makes me proud to be his mom. He had a wonderful weekend and is so lucky to have so many people who love him in his life. He got a new iPod from Mimi and Moggy which he was so excited about.

Oh well, off to pick him up from school soon :)

He can be SO sweet!

Okay, although Dominic can be difficult sometimes, he can also be incredibly sweet. The other night he was watching a movie and he said "Mommy, what's wrong with that boys hair". I mean, the kid had hair on his head that looked like it belonged on another body part, not his head. I said "well, he does look like a goober, doesn't he?" And he said, "yeah, but his mommy and daddy like him just the way he is, don't they?" Awwww, I teared up because of the innocence and sweet spirit I see in him. I wish I could bottle it forever. ~sigh~

Saints...

Okay, there HAS to be a special place in heaven for a mother of all boys. And, I do mean ALL boys. I have friends that have boys and a girl, and well, they don't count! If you have some estrogen in the house to balance out all the testosterone, then you can't take that special place from us All Boy Moms!! We are a special breed and for whatever reason, God thinks we're capable to handle this huge task (or else he has a very wicked sense of humor!). I love my boys dearly, but some days are just really, really tough. The other day I was in Wal-Mart by myself (doesn't happen very often!) and this man behind me and I started talking. We were, after all in line for 25 minutes, no joke, while the completely incapable cashier tried to do a job that she obviously wasn't trained properly to do. Anyway, after I told him that I had 4 boys and he was shocked "I thought you were like 22 or 23" hehe, he told me that he was one of 3 boys. I told him that he should kiss his mother every day and tell her that she is a saint. He said "well, we got our butts beaten a lot" and I told him that with all those boys that his mother had to do whatever she could to keep them in line. By the end of our conversation, I think I had him convinced that his mother should be inducted into Sainthood. Okay, enough of my rant now! It's just been a very long day.